Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Starting Over

Dear Lily,
     
     My darling girl, how precious you are to me! This morning you said you wanted to start over and I asked you what you meant. You said that you wanted to start as a baby and do it all again. You wanted to be my baby again. Your words touched me because sometimes I want to start over again too- from the very beginning and do it all again and not change a thing. Your words stunned me and tore at my heart because you are aware now that you aren't my tiny baby any more. You know we can't just flip the hour glass over and go back.

      And I told you today that I don't want to start over because I love who you are and who you are becoming. I told you I love being so privileged to have held your hand all this time until little by little I have to let go.