Thursday, May 28, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
This weekend I bought plants at Lowe's and had so much fun getting them all potted and pretty. I can't wait for them to grow and it reminds me how much someday I really want to be able to have a real garden growing lots of things...I also started working on a new art project- sort of a painting/ paper collage. If you've ever looked at the blogs I follow ---> the Finding Home blog author does some very cool work. Her blog gave me some inspiration to try my own artwork- on a little bit bigger scale than just cards. And as I was working and having that time I realized that this art- whatever it may be- is a really big part of who I am. I think I let it go too long-didn't do enough- and when it came to the question...who am I? What is interesting about me? There weren't really any answers...I was just being...living and breathing having to go on autopilot Mom mode for so long. I guess now I finally feel like I can be more. Lily is more independent and able to entertain herself. And I am finding the time to do the things that make me happy.
I am happy being independent. I had really forgotten how much I enjoyed it-so I was soaking it all up when Lily was gone all weekend. It also reminded me how that even though sometimes I think it would be nice to start dating (meeting people again???) I feel like right now adding anyone extra to the mix I would have to give up the carefully allotted "me" time I am really enjoying...maybe someday I'll feel differently about it- I'm just not there yet.
Anyway...enough about me...Lily's teacher did her hair yesterday in these cute little stick up all around twists- but as soon as we got in the car they weren't comfortable for her so she had me take them out : ( so I didn't get a picture- too cute though. She is really getting tall- a bunch of her pants are getting too short- now they are "capri pants" haha. Oh, and that reminds me that I want to get a little ruler set up to measure her (maybe just a long piece of paper taped to the wall or something) so we can see how much she's grown... it seems like she's grown quite a bit taller in the last few months or so. Otherwise she's still just Lily. Mostly happy and sweet (kind of clingy after being gone so many days!) And very excited about our Fort Warden trip coming up this weekend. She's so excited to go on a ferry boat again, and me too! PS That was the first time I have ever added a link within my blog... now that I know how...who knows what I'll come up with ; )
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
You are very cute- and almost cuddly- but not up close. Please do not wander down the very streets I walk on a regular basis nor in the parks where Lily and I play all the time. Because, well, it freaks me out a bit. Please find your way back to the forest- it will suit you much better- I promise.
Friday, May 15, 2009
A mommy and a Baby School bus:
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
At Dad and Di's on Saturday I said, "Lily, you are really starting to irritate me." Because she was being whiney and annoying. Then she said back, "You are irritating me, too." I guess I deserved that. Then I said, "I think we need a little break from each other." She agreed.
I guess it is nice that we can have this kind of conversation but for real- is this kind of stuff happening already? She's three and a half going on fourteen. What happened to my baby?
Then this morning she was being whiney again and I asked her why she was acting like a baby (throwing herself on the floor kicking and screaming). She responded "Those words are disgusting Mommy!" "Uh, what words are disgusting?" "Words like Baby" "Then stop acting like one." Nothing but whimpering from her. Seriously...Seriously?
I guess I just don't have a lot of tolerance for whining. Like, get mad. Tell me why you are mad- tell me all about it, reason with me, bargain with me whatever. But falling on the floor whining...just can't take it. I have no patience or sympathy for it. Are my expectations too high? Am I setting myself up to be frustrated by expecting her to tell me what is going on rather that just throwing a fit? I don't know. I really don't know. It seemed like she was doing so well- then her dad canceled last weekend with her and now we are back to this. Again. Blegh.
Well enough self reflection for one day. I'll have some pictures tomorrow I think. Later!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Lily: Eww, Mommy you have whiskers on your legs!
*Apparently, even though I don't particularly care what my legs look like, it is important to Lily that I have smooth legs, especially when she wants to sleep on my tummy and her feet touch my legs.
Lily: Mommy, what's in my balloon?
Mommy: Uh, nothing. I don't see anything (I will admint I was a bit distracted getting ready for work)
Lily: No Mommy- there's something in there.
Mommy: Lily, honey, (taking the balloon from her hand and examining it) I don't see anything inside the balloon, okay?
Lily: There is too. There's Helium in there.
Mommy: Oh, yeah, Helium. Yes there is Helium in there. Sorry.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Lily's class last week was learning about bugs- they did some bug searching outside and read some bug stories. Now, she has never been a big fan of bugs. If we ever have a fly in the house she makes sure we (by we I mean me) chase it outside somehow or suck it up with the vacuum cleaner. Though one time she did get a bowl from her drawer and place it on top of a dead fly on our windowsill. Thanks honey! You're my big helper...
Anyway... the moral of the story...Now she is absolutley terrified of bugs. At the park she literally had a panic attack when a fly or bee flew near her- hysterical screaming and clawing at my legs to climb up..craziness. Then on Friday night she woke up at one o'clock after having a bad dream. She said in her dream her shadow turned into bugs and they chased her. We went and had some tea and watched a show for a little while before going back to bed with the bathroom light on. Every few minutes she would ask me to turn on the lamp and "check" the ceiling for bugs. This lasted about two hours. Ugg. Luckily we were able (by we I mean her, I was up around oh the usual 6:30 am, grr) to sleep in.
Saturday night we only had to check a few times but again last night she had another nightmare- we went to sleep with the bathroom light on but sometime later I got up and turned it off. She was up from about three to four or so and we of course had to turn the light back on and check the ceiling-repeatedly. Of course I finaly fell back asleep and my alarm went off about five minutes later. Happy Monday, y'all!
We had fun yesterday during the day though. We went to Greenlake and played at the park- Lily was super excited about the "tongue swings" and also had lots of fun chasing the ducks. I forgot my flash drive so the pictures will be up tomorrow.
Lily "Quotes of the Weekend"
"Mommy, if you were a worm I would catch you!"
"Oh, this song (on the radio) makes me a princess!"
"Get your cute shoes Mommy so we can dance!"
Then we danced. She loved it- I loved it. : )